My personal progress

The years of the dragon have been bad only if i look into my failures of keeping all my promises . Yet this year have brought me a lot of reflection and clarity. Pushing myself and learning to adapt have been difficult. Working days or nights or even quiet shifts or a busy one can affect my limits. I have slowly felt that i wasn’t a good fit to the team and i was good with that . Even on my regular class i don’t feel the right to be line up and feel great at the back due i know i can t be a good example . I know Kungfu is a part of my life and yet so many time i was close to quit . My family is very important and for the past 2 years i couldn’t enjoy all the activities we use to do due of injury. I can’t think of keep doing more if i am not where my heart is . So for me i need to focus on the basic skills , go day by day , working of getting stronger and building my thrust in abilities to get a balanced. I will not be joining the team next years but i will always try my best to help wh...

I have been struggling with injuries for the past 2 years but yet still have the desire to continue. I continue to learn how to adapt specially with the mental aspect. The question of why i am doing it its hard to put words on it but recently noticed it is part on my life balance. Pushing yourself shouldn’t be to your own  detriments but in the best improvement. Slow and steady should be on my mind with takings care of myself. I was recently back on the mat and felt great unfortunately ill be my on the bench due i have an tennis elbow. It feel like a message is sent to me that my priority is too look after myself. For now ill focus on my rehab seek medical help and go day by day and try to not get frustrated when i can t  achieve what i could the day before but build awareness of what happened .

 At first i wasn’t planning to do the break o thon until i talked with Sifu Ryback. I did 4 single breakand one combination and felt awesome that i have attempted. I stopped when feeling some shock in my back . What i have learned is i can still do some rep but need to be mindful of my body. I can tell that i have accommodating in some areas without thinking of it , like involving my hips in some technique but yet still able to apply somehow the application. I aslo privilege my right side . I ll continue with my slow pace and hopefully ill find the way to continue training.

I have been quite for a long time now. I had good reason but some fears too. Dealing with injuries its a process and not always easy to not fall into the darker side. I am still on reflection about how i should move on . Not having clear answers of what is going on with my back and having increasing issues with my knee. I am questioning about safety for myself ,my teammates and the sacrifices of my family. For the past 2 years have not be able to enjoy the family activities due of restrictions. Pain increased with repetition and through out the day . Being back to work i can manage my shift but often even a single move like bending, sitting will set up the pain. I am not quitting but it is on my mind . I know i can be creative with my kung fu And progressing so why not now ? I can remember prior knowing i needed it a need surgery i went through the same process then it was easy to find a good way to train. I am seeking medical help so hopefully in the near future i will be able to get ...

On my last shift , i was outside during my break looking at my phone when i started to hear are you ok multiple time . I looked and saw a lady trying to wake up someone on the bench. I started to go there and the lady was trying to call help when i saw security. I wave at them . They came and assist us . Thankfully they carry narcan . 4 doses was administered and one round of cpr and she was back. I thanks the lady to not have ignored the person on the bench and she said my son passed away last week of overdose. At work i see so many homeless sleeping everywhere, i always check if they are breathing but i never try to wake them up due of the risk of getting them mad . So much aggression going around my work. Normally i just call security to let them know and i stick around until they come . One life was safe that day with the courage of that lady . 

 Keeping the positive in front of me is getting harder. Questioning if holding my life/ activities was the best option. Looking after myself and prioritizing is somehow new . Navigated from injury have thought me a lot but yet still need to progress wisely and learn. Beginning by my choice of requirements and be realistic of my current capacity. I set myself for failure by letting my goal be my priority. Everything started with good intentions but not realistic. Slowing down doesn’t mean not working hard but i am feeling this way . I am scheduled to get back to work sept 3 and i will  see how that go for the next 2 weeks and hopefully made my return to the mat ! 

I am on vacation and going to visit my family. Long time since i saw them . On Monday we reach Toronto. Driving almost 1000 km per day . So rehab exercises have been to the minimum only the stretching was done and some mental rep . Somehow it was helping to stay awake! We visited niagara falls and saw the blue jays game . While walking downtown at night it was a bit sketchy . I became so alert of my surroundings so i asked my kids about safety. Calvin say look confident due the bad guys might think twice before trying something!! I was happy of the answer. Then i told them about the parents/kids game we had prior our vacation. So many mom was scared to go at bat and me i got this and yes i was successful after one pitch !! So confident brought focus and power! I will be back aug 24-25 .