My personal progress

Before going on vacation was a struggle to keep up my requirements many excuses has we were driving or to shy to practice out in public.Now i am so trill !Practicing in different beautiful places ,adapting to the area ,uneven ground bring some challenges but great learning in balance and more!I was not supposed to be in the last Ihc classes but so happy i made it!My kids were with me and they even drop their phone to watch the classes and they were WOW !! When things change and you embrace it beautiful thing happened!

The physical is the easiest part to focus on without thinking too much. When it come to the mental is different for me .I need to stop and question myself a lots or at time i will feel something is wrong.Thrust yourself and body !This past week due of an old injury causing pain my physical requirements have not been good even with modified was difficult.This said is getting way better. While i took some time off i noticed more Kungfu around me .I was watching my son playing baseball and i was seeing the 6 Harmony !!they even did the fasting belt exercises for warm up !Why only now i was able to see it? My mind can be easily everywhere and thinking ahead instead of being on the present.

 I found is getting easier and fun to practice in the public place (park or camping)what i have changed?I think my ability to focus of what i am doing instead of them ,my confidence and my motivation to achieve my goal!Now that my kids are done school my planning need to change and i will need to adapt on the daily basis .This week it s a bit harder due of the heat wave ,looking  for a place to cool down and entertaining the kido .This say i am seeing a potential danger in my training if i am always giving and not taking time for myself.

 Yesterday was my first class back !So much eyes opening.working on the opposite side than normally you do and feel something is wrong show me that i should incorporate this more often on my training.Having more space help me to realized i need to work on my breathing ! I felt dizzy and hot at the end of the class but noticed i didn’t look all the time where was my target with the spinning kick and how i need to loosen up the controls with the spinning stiff kick to spine and just go for it .Sometimes to much thinking will go against your trust.

Although i ´ve continue to train the past few weeks,it s been a struggle.Perception and knowing yourself is the key.When i first joined Kungfu, it was to do something with myself. I quickly realized it was beneficial in helping me clear my mind and focus on the moment. The Kwoon was a bandaid and with all the challenges i ´ve face during the pandemic, i find that patch is beginning to tears off. My field of work won’t change. I worry about certain patients ,wonder if there are way i can do better and improve my care .It s challenging to train at home as my mind is everywhere-noise ,kids ,duties and more. The tiger challenge was a boost and i ´ve found that training with music cleared my mind and allowed me to focus on the present.

 Recently i was asked to reflect on my training and validate my feelings in regards to why i feel not doing well.It s amazing that simple words can hold such power and how you can push yourself to see things differently.knowing someone views you positively helps but only if you reflect on the why.I have been struggling with mindful training and have doubt about my progression.I failed to incorporate the changes due to the pandemic and alter my expectations accordingly without bringing myself down.what i want doesn’t match reality at this time.

 We all want something but where our need stand if we follow our want.He can be a fine line by pushing ourselves to achieve it than listening .Your guts will tell you if it s a reason or excuses .Honesty is the key!