My personal progress

 Pu 17 205                                                                             Su 17 070                                                                              Sparring 252.                                                                         Km 196.                                               ...

 Last night was the most beneficial 20 minutes. My katana form was at first in my mind and then executed by my son . Few places have changed due of his input. Now that i am practicing with still some modifications and i can tell some places need it to be reviewed. Sihing kohut help me a lots to understand the katana and to review my grey zone . Practicing with is katana was also a big difference. Mine is way lighter and feel like not feeling any cut but just throwing it in the air. I am looking to buy something else and in the same time i ll practicing with a Bokken .

I am fighting against myself . As my knee improved my expectations are as well . My goals haven’t change but my approach is . I am focusing on the future when i should be living in the present moment. I am still at the stage to figure out how to plant  my feet , getting my balance and where is my limit . When i push too much that set me back . My engagement is there but that come with frustration. It s challenging to remain kind to myself when i am struggling now and my focus is on the future and where i want my progress to be.Time to look at my past and into my journey to get and give myself some positive note.I’ll do the tiger challenge even if i know he won’t be yet my best performance but knowing i do my best to fill up my promises .

 My return on the mat went better than expected.One words come in mind is control. As for now i need to slow down to be able to learn how to be safe and have a better progression. I find easy to have control when working with a partner than doing it for myself. The excitement of being back and wanted to give my levels 10 can be dangerous. I need to found an happy level to continue to push myself by respecting my current ability. It s been 3 months since the surgery and honestly i thought i will have been back sooner. Since Monday i have started to practice my hand form from standing and now i can tell how disconnected i am and how true it is having a weapon is your extension from yourself. The beauty of my modifications is i can tell more when that doesn’t feel right so i have been learning to listen to my body better than in the past.

 Pu 11975                                                                             Su 11865.                                                                             Sparring 147.                                                                       Km 130                                                   ...

 All the pieces start to come together. Seeing my surgeon and been told likely everything I feel is due of inflammation and weakness. To reach out in 2-3 months if nothing have change. I knew about some food can help with inflammation but yet didn’t really look into it until my family doctor gave me some recipe .The guilt is present because i am questioning why i am not back on the mat ? Now i need to see if the fact is some excuses or reasons. My issue is increasing at night and even a small bend creates a locking sensation without really locking.From the bench i am learning and i am afraid on the mat i will not so much but yet aware i can increase my progression on how i can adapt . The easiest way to verify and help me to find the answers is to get back ! So see u all on Wednesday!