My return

 My return on the mat went better than expected.One words come in mind is control. As for now i need to slow down to be able to learn how to be safe and have a better progression. I find easy to have control when working with a partner than doing it for myself. The excitement of being back and wanted to give my levels 10 can be dangerous. I need to found an happy level to continue to push myself by respecting my current ability. It s been 3 months since the surgery and honestly i thought i will have been back sooner. Since Monday i have started to practice my hand form from standing and now i can tell how disconnected i am and how true it is having a weapon is your extension from yourself. The beauty of my modifications is i can tell more when that doesn’t feel right so i have been learning to listen to my body better than in the past.

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