The years of the dragon have been bad only if i look into my failures of keeping all my promises . Yet this year have brought me a lot of reflection and clarity. Pushing myself and learning to adapt have been difficult. Working days or nights or even quiet shifts or a busy one can affect my limits. I have slowly felt that i wasn’t a good fit to the team and i was good with that . Even on my regular class i don’t feel the right to be line up and feel great at the back due i know i can t be a good example . I know Kungfu is a part of my life and yet so many time i was close to quit . My family is very important and for the past 2 years i couldn’t enjoy all the activities we use to do due of injury. I can’t think of keep doing more if i am not where my heart is . So for me i need to focus on the basic skills , go day by day , working of getting stronger and building my thrust in abilities to get a balanced. I will not be joining the team next years but i will always try my best to help wh...
Time fly and blogging wasn’t on my priority . I thought about the previous situation that have happened . I reach out to received some feed back from my sifu . My own frustration and feelings was projected. I was seeing myself like a burden of the class and not deserve it to be part of the training . I choose to run away thinking that was the best but yet that was just a coping mechanism. I am always afraid to work with a partner due I never know when i won’t be able to continue or need to avoid certain moves . Now I am still at the back but in the last row . Slowly I want to take my place .
I have been struggling with injuries for the past 2 years but yet still have the desire to continue. I continue to learn how to adapt specially with the mental aspect. The question of why i am doing it its hard to put words on it but recently noticed it is part on my life balance. Pushing yourself shouldn’t be to your own detriments but in the best improvement. Slow and steady should be on my mind with takings care of myself. I was recently back on the mat and felt great unfortunately ill be my on the bench due i have an tennis elbow. It feel like a message is sent to me that my priority is too look after myself. For now ill focus on my rehab seek medical help and go day by day and try to not get frustrated when i can t achieve what i could the day before but build awareness of what happened .
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