The years of the dragon have been bad only if i look into my failures of keeping all my promises . Yet this year have brought me a lot of reflection and clarity. Pushing myself and learning to adapt have been difficult. Working days or nights or even quiet shifts or a busy one can affect my limits. I have slowly felt that i wasn’t a good fit to the team and i was good with that . Even on my regular class i don’t feel the right to be line up and feel great at the back due i know i can t be a good example . I know Kungfu is a part of my life and yet so many time i was close to quit . My family is very important and for the past 2 years i couldn’t enjoy all the activities we use to do due of injury. I can’t think of keep doing more if i am not where my heart is . So for me i need to focus on the basic skills , go day by day , working of getting stronger and building my thrust in abilities to get a balanced. I will not be joining the team next years but i will always try my best to help wh...
Time fly and blogging wasn’t on my priority . I thought about the previous situation that have happened . I reach out to received some feed back from my sifu . My own frustration and feelings was projected. I was seeing myself like a burden of the class and not deserve it to be part of the training . I choose to run away thinking that was the best but yet that was just a coping mechanism. I am always afraid to work with a partner due I never know when i won’t be able to continue or need to avoid certain moves . Now I am still at the back but in the last row . Slowly I want to take my place .
Unfortunately my training have been to zero . I was modified most of it but due to a recent incident my back have worsened. I am keeping my moral by seeing all opportunities that i can get . I am off work for now but recently i have been approached to learn and do midline , it s only the clinical educator nurse that was doing it in medicine program and now me ! . With WCB i need to be careful due now they say my back worsening was due of incident at home so now i won’t be paid till back to work. I am frustrated due my back was weak from work incident and honestly i can take chances and lost all my earnings. With my next blog ill post my rehab training i do ! I will be of mat for now and not being part of the canada demo .
Looking good.
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