My personal progress

 At first i wasn’t planning to do the break o thon until i talked with Sifu Ryback. I did 4 single breakand one combination and felt awesome that i have attempted. I stopped when feeling some shock in my back . What i have learned is i can still do some rep but need to be mindful of my body. I can tell that i have accommodating in some areas without thinking of it , like involving my hips in some technique but yet still able to apply somehow the application. I aslo privilege my right side . I ll continue with my slow pace and hopefully ill find the way to continue training.

I have been quite for a long time now. I had good reason but some fears too. Dealing with injuries its a process and not always easy to not fall into the darker side. I am still on reflection about how i should move on . Not having clear answers of what is going on with my back and having increasing issues with my knee. I am questioning about safety for myself ,my teammates and the sacrifices of my family. For the past 2 years have not be able to enjoy the family activities due of restrictions. Pain increased with repetition and through out the day . Being back to work i can manage my shift but often even a single move like bending, sitting will set up the pain. I am not quitting but it is on my mind . I know i can be creative with my kung fu And progressing so why not now ? I can remember prior knowing i needed it a need surgery i went through the same process then it was easy to find a good way to train. I am seeking medical help so hopefully in the near future i will be able to get ...

On my last shift , i was outside during my break looking at my phone when i started to hear are you ok multiple time . I looked and saw a lady trying to wake up someone on the bench. I started to go there and the lady was trying to call help when i saw security. I wave at them . They came and assist us . Thankfully they carry narcan . 4 doses was administered and one round of cpr and she was back. I thanks the lady to not have ignored the person on the bench and she said my son passed away last week of overdose. At work i see so many homeless sleeping everywhere, i always check if they are breathing but i never try to wake them up due of the risk of getting them mad . So much aggression going around my work. Normally i just call security to let them know and i stick around until they come . One life was safe that day with the courage of that lady . 

 Keeping the positive in front of me is getting harder. Questioning if holding my life/ activities was the best option. Looking after myself and prioritizing is somehow new . Navigated from injury have thought me a lot but yet still need to progress wisely and learn. Beginning by my choice of requirements and be realistic of my current capacity. I set myself for failure by letting my goal be my priority. Everything started with good intentions but not realistic. Slowing down doesn’t mean not working hard but i am feeling this way . I am scheduled to get back to work sept 3 and i will  see how that go for the next 2 weeks and hopefully made my return to the mat ! 

I am on vacation and going to visit my family. Long time since i saw them . On Monday we reach Toronto. Driving almost 1000 km per day . So rehab exercises have been to the minimum only the stretching was done and some mental rep . Somehow it was helping to stay awake! We visited niagara falls and saw the blue jays game . While walking downtown at night it was a bit sketchy . I became so alert of my surroundings so i asked my kids about safety. Calvin say look confident due the bad guys might think twice before trying something!! I was happy of the answer. Then i told them about the parents/kids game we had prior our vacation. So many mom was scared to go at bat and me i got this and yes i was successful after one pitch !! So confident brought focus and power! I will be back aug 24-25 . 

 Lately i feel i am pulling away from the team . I am not practicing kungfu physically or doing my personal requirements. Yet i feel kungfu everyday and help me to stay grounded and keep me going. While doing my cardio and monitoring my pulse i can see how much a big breath drop down my pulse . I knew that before but to be able to see it help to emphasize the good. Some of my exercises game me pain but less if i am engaging my core and in the same time felt so grounded. While pushing wts  i can tell if my stances are correct or not . I believe kungfu have help with my awareness of my body . Being not so involved with the class/team push me to be more in my son baseball team . Initiated a surprise for the manager, be available for all the game by given extra help than require. I continue to take care of myself and looking forward to be back on the mat when i ll be cleared to do so .