Bleu

 I received my bleu belt ! I was happy but yet questioning how it s possible. I am not questioning the judgement of my sifu but what they see and i don’t. I still trying to figure it out how to modified my moved , what triggers the pain and how far I can push myself. I can say , yes I did progress but not to where I was before and I want to be .I am not sure if I will ever reach the level I want . It s so hard not to compare myself from before to now . 

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