My personal progress

 Having extras numbers feels great but dangerous. Since the baseball season started, i noticed i am allowing myself to say that’s ok I have enough . I plan through out the week to have some extra and thinking i will be good for the baseball game .Then the guilt hits . When i go to my Physio ,my numbers are not the greatest and pushed myself to do more the next day . I am not constant on my daily basis. At the beginning of my injury i learn to train differently and that was positive. Being close to be somehow back to normal let me forget to seek opportunity like what to do when sitting. We talk a lot about intent when we train but i forgot to ask myself what is my intent of the day . 

Often we were ask what is our intent. It is easy to have one but harder to keep it through out your form . Lately i have been trying to focus on looking first before moving and yet this have help me to phrases better my form and not doing so much  the abc . I kinda know where to have my poses!

 Recently , i have been pushing myself a little bit more. The good thing is i am working on my strength and rebuild the muscle. That come with consequences ,more swelling but i am learning when to stop and find a balance. Slowing down is a good thing due now i have time to analyze the step and not only doing the step because i know it . I have generated more questions now and even doubting myself that help me with my awareness . Patience and safety need to be part of my training .

 Pu 4370 (26 866) / su 4170 (26 646) / sparring 108 (468) km 99 ( 398) / 18 Motion temple 89( 535) / Ako 98(486)    Katana 81(406) mastery 17(107)

 Kids being off school ,i feels like rushing more to accomplish my day . I am use to be busy with the extra curriculum they do (kungfu,swimming,dance,gymnastics and baseball. Now that almost everything is done is worst on my time . I shouldn’t let the time affecting me at the end i still manege to accomplish my requirements. I am better than in the past to recognize and adjusting my training for the current needs only on different time. This past week i have a set back . My knee is giving me some trouble due i have been more up and around and it showing to me that i am not yet ready for work even if my mind was . I will embrace a summer off ! I might not be involved in some team events but i am still pushing myself to seek opportunity. This year i have been volunteering in baseball and helping anywhere i can . 

 This past Monday when i left the kwoon i felt frustrated.I felt i was letting down the teammates by not mopping the floor. It s been awhile i kinda feel obligated to stay and when i don’t i am worried that the black belt will have to do it . Today by sharing my concern i realized that i am engaged and care about the place i trained. I shouldn’t let those negative thoughts interfering on my intent at the first place . I am cleaning because i love my place .

 It s been almost 6 months that i avoided to do side heel kick due of the foot rotation. Recently ,i am using the wall to help me with the balance and have the proper foot position. Feels like going back to the roots but with a  better understanding of the move.I need to focus about what is the right stances/ what feel better. Can be tricky due i have been accommodated lots for my knee.while back sifu Ryback advice me to kick lower and that was helpful and i shared it to my physiotherapist. He was again adjusting my exercises to help . For the first time i won’t be in the demo for Canada day . The hills is the main issue for me to be able to perform in a safe way . Now my return to work is push back of what i have expected and i can’t take any chances. After i took the decision of not participating we got my son baseball schedule. I will be in olds for his tournament but i am committed to do pitch count or score keep even if i am not very professional of doing that but i wante...