My personal progress

 This past Monday when i left the kwoon i felt frustrated.I felt i was letting down the teammates by not mopping the floor. It s been awhile i kinda feel obligated to stay and when i don’t i am worried that the black belt will have to do it . Today by sharing my concern i realized that i am engaged and care about the place i trained. I shouldn’t let those negative thoughts interfering on my intent at the first place . I am cleaning because i love my place .

 It s been almost 6 months that i avoided to do side heel kick due of the foot rotation. Recently ,i am using the wall to help me with the balance and have the proper foot position. Feels like going back to the roots but with a  better understanding of the move.I need to focus about what is the right stances/ what feel better. Can be tricky due i have been accommodated lots for my knee.while back sifu Ryback advice me to kick lower and that was helpful and i shared it to my physiotherapist. He was again adjusting my exercises to help . For the first time i won’t be in the demo for Canada day . The hills is the main issue for me to be able to perform in a safe way . Now my return to work is push back of what i have expected and i can’t take any chances. After i took the decision of not participating we got my son baseball schedule. I will be in olds for his tournament but i am committed to do pitch count or score keep even if i am not very professional of doing that but i wante...

 My stances have been all over the place to allowed me to move more at ease. I don’t have to focus how to plant my feet anymore.Danger, due i have created bad habits . In the next little while i might be slower and not fully in my stances but i will be relearning how to move. My physiotherapist is aware of me being a martial artist and i am sharing with him when and how the position is given me some pain and he adjust my exercises. Time and focus will help me to be back on track!

 I have been off work for 5 months now and soon i should be back . Lately i felt my progression was at zero but i was wrong. Good thing for tracking numbers . My km are slowly increasing has my tolerance is . Last class was some drills with the shield. Before i wouldn’t have attempted but i did. Knowing my stance was not appropriate and feeling that was not right tells me i am improving. Without knowing when out in public i have been talking way more to strangers and in mean time doing my act if kindness. Being a nurse is not a job but a vocation. Normally we say if struggling fix your kungfu but now personally feel kungfu help me on track mentally even if had ups and down they were only for short instance.

 This past weekend i was in a baseball tournament for my son . His level requires to have all parents on deck. I signed  up to be a tournament coordinator. Out of my comfort zone ! The weekend was awesome and i learned a lot . I was not affraid to asked questions and reach out when it was needed. I wanted to succeed in my role and not let anybody down. I was up early to start my requirements and felt very good leaving the house. Focus and motivations was the key and lately i have been pushing back to start or frustrated how i preformed. It was easier to see improvement at the beginning of my recovery than now . I want more and i expect more bring that negatively though. I should not compare myself but to continue to adapt and look ahead.                                                                     ...

 It was my first in person Tiger challenge since i started . At first , i was hesitating to be part of it but happy i did. One of the reasons was how can i perform well when i can’t do the proper stances or working on flow . Sihing Bjorkquist asked  me about fight choreography and i thought that sounds fun and actually i had so much fun doing it and great learning opportunities ! Lately i have been struggling but i start to understand the why . I am getting stronger and walking better but yet some kungfu move remains a big challenges .My mind is tired due i wants to accomplish more but the body doesn’t follow. It was easier mentally before when i had way more limitations .The tiger challenge help me to realized  i came from far and i was able to successfully perform . Recovery have many phases and all of them bring some good reflection and learning!

 This month i have a tendency to push back for tomorrow then i need to play catch up . My numbers are still good but feel my thoughts are only about doing my number. When i start on the morning that give me motivation to thrive throughout the day and find opportunities to do more.I don’t truly know the reason but i noticed the same pattern in my life . So ill use the words of sihing Langner Just do it !