Motivation can be hard to keep when you question yourself.I feel my progress have been very slow but yet i know i have not attended lots of classes or open training due of work Or family.I had also a few hard shifts .I had a pt dying ,he was palliative but family on denial.They accused me ,they yield at me for not saving him regardless of all my kindness to keep him peaceful.This week was more on the dark side but last night class was awesome!with the challenge given to us to put the show in 15 sec of our weapons forms.I notice i didn’t think and just did and felt that was a good performance!I am my own demon if i allowed it .Too much thinking don’t allow you to feel it or be confident.
Next year
The years of the dragon have been bad only if i look into my failures of keeping all my promises . Yet this year have brought me a lot of reflection and clarity. Pushing myself and learning to adapt have been difficult. Working days or nights or even quiet shifts or a busy one can affect my limits. I have slowly felt that i wasn’t a good fit to the team and i was good with that . Even on my regular class i don’t feel the right to be line up and feel great at the back due i know i can t be a good example . I know Kungfu is a part of my life and yet so many time i was close to quit . My family is very important and for the past 2 years i couldn’t enjoy all the activities we use to do due of injury. I can’t think of keep doing more if i am not where my heart is . So for me i need to focus on the basic skills , go day by day , working of getting stronger and building my thrust in abilities to get a balanced. I will not be joining the team next years but i will always try my best to help wh...
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