Motivation can be hard to keep when you question yourself.I feel my progress have been very slow but yet i know i have not attended lots of classes or open training due of work Or family.I had also a few hard shifts .I had a pt dying ,he was palliative but family on denial.They accused me ,they yield at me for not saving him regardless of all my kindness to keep him peaceful.This week was more on the dark side but last night class was awesome!with the challenge given to us to put the show in 15 sec of our weapons forms.I notice i didn’t think and just did and felt that was a good performance!I am my own demon if i allowed it .Too much thinking don’t allow you to feel it or be confident.
Slurpee
The night before the demo i asked my son if he would like to do my form in the IHC team .At fist he said no. Obviously he have changed his mind. He got a deal ! a slurpee!! He was affraid to mess up or even to forget. He did not really practice it . I told him not to worry about it that no one will judge. Being on the mat and wearing the uniform was an amazing feeling. Sharing this incredible night with my son was priceless. A proud moments!! I don’t know yet if my beta version will change due at this time i can’t really do it in a way i could feel the flow or even understand very well the Katana .I had some good insight from my son to help me to get what i came up with . Without the injury I wouldn’t have experience those moments or thought i can write a form .A tools that i will keep in mind for the future .
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