My personal progress

 I am not proud saying that i am failing with my personal goal .I am still a smoker, bad eating habits and did not achieve yet my 5 k running.This past weekend i had eye openings!my son telling me breakfast is the most important meal of the day,Mr Duncan with his  due date for smoking cessation.Now i just need to kick myself and applying a plan.I am keep pushing back my date so on Wednesday it is!Working only night shift for so long i feel my body stay in that beat even on my days off .In the past i say i will not have coffee unless i eat before but i didn’t do it .I will return to this plan!For the running part  with more energy and smoke free hopefully that will help me to achieve this goal!Finally i just want to share that we gona have a new kitten from scars!!!

 Motivation can be hard to keep when you question yourself.I feel my progress have been very slow but yet i know i have not attended lots of classes or open training due of work Or family.I had also a few hard shifts .I had a pt dying ,he was palliative but family on denial.They accused me ,they yield at me for not saving him regardless of all my kindness to keep him peaceful.This week was more on the dark side but last night class was awesome!with the challenge given to us to put the show in 15 sec of our weapons forms.I notice i didn’t think and just did and felt that was a good performance!I am my own demon if i allowed it .Too much thinking don’t allow you to feel it or be confident.