My personal progress

 Congratulations to the 5 new black belt and the awards recipient. All speech was inspiring!! Not being part of the demo was heartbreaking but heartwarming to see you all doing it!! Everyone was excellent and if someone screw something up they didn’t let it seen !! Prior the Rabbit years i started with a knee surgery. Yet , i feel it s gona be a good year even if i am facing some difficulty. I am learning how to see and approach my training in a different view . 

 When i choose my goals sifu Ryback advice me to words them differently. 52 times a year instead of once a week.This is setting me for success! How we say things or think  can make a huge difference.That brings me about yesterday challenges. The goals was 1000 pu/su/cal . I should put an X marks but my intent was not the number even if it was a goal.  I surpassed my expectations and help me to view my journey in a positive way .

 Take it easy is a difficult words for me . I am a fighter ,competitive person that help me to thrive further. My expectations of myself  is high . I did failed some requirements in the past due of excuses but the learning was present and valuable. Acknowledging my limitations and the eager to get back on my feet forced me to see and thinks differently. My journey is mine and is up to me to define what kind of martial artist i am . Last night class even sitting on the bench felt i learn something. I open my mind about watching and feeling it s a great opportunity to increase eyes for details. I know i will continue to have some up and down and questioning myself about why i am doing this  and where i am going but at the end i will just get stronger.

For lots of people Friday 13 is bad luck but for me  is the lucky day .I will have my surgery done on day unless if they reschedule it . I  am looking forward  for my recovery part . I know i will be never be the same one. I will need to adapt . For me is to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am going forward and i will discover a new me . The Rabbit year s will start slow but i am confident i will have a success Year! My determination to get back on my feet and all the training i have done in the past will help me to go through the recovery process! I will miss this banquet but i ll be there to cheer you up !!

I can say many excuses or reasons but yet both feel wrong.Since i am modified at work and doing less training my knee didn’t give me shock sensation or throbbing feeling at night ,It feel good.but Lately i have noted my knee is skipping more often now.Fears of aggravated is on my mind.Beginning of the year i  started with that injury .I got satisfied with my weapon instead of looking how i can modified thing i wanted to do.Many time in classes i was pushing further than i should and feeling the pain later . Yet i knew i need it to take an easy but i didn’t. Ego/ stubbornness and fears  Training should be easy but harder when i can’t get satisfied or frustrated. I am looking on the negative side instead of looking of my progress even if small it is . Being on the bench is not myself and struggles with limitations.So lately i have been feeling shame of not training and my Blogging have been following that same paths.This oncoming years will also be hard .Igot approved for surger...