My personal progress

When i started Kungfu i didn’t know anything. Has the time progress the feeling that’s something is wrong improved. Not all the time i can say what’s wrong but help to increase the thought behind the technic. Doing Kungfu with an injury push me to listen harder to my body.This week i was struggling with my front thrust kick and i couldn’t find away to modified it .I was advised to slow down .Taking the time and going lower was helpful!

 The words athletes was not in my vocabulary until recently .My physio therapist told his students that they can ask more from me .He said she is an athlete. Obviously, i thought about it . The mentality is the key ! The time i allowed for my training ,the determination i have for my  achievements and success. I don’t need to be in competition level to be an athlete but in competition with myself to keep pushing harder to get better.

 Fews weeks ago my fears brought me in the negative place , i thought of dropping my say form to go with the easiest route and choose something else i know.Kungfu mean hard work so i am glad this thought was only for short period and used my fears to guide me.He help me to be aware of my body ,how do i move and how i can do ajustements. I have my beta forms and that is work in progress! I am taken a step back in regards of moving forward . I am seeing this has a progression due i am finding some weakness but yet didn’t all figure it out . Mastery is not a race but a journey of learning and how well i can use the lessons throwing at me.

 I never used to focus on the fitness test numbers.They were in my mind to help me to get better and stronger .I’ve trained and trusted the journey. I have goals for earning the black belt. Since my knee injury,i started thinking about my limits and how i can safely reach my goals. I started questioning whether it was possible. I worried about the numbers and it began to feel as if i was standing at the bottom of the Mount Everest ,looking up at the gruelling journey ahead.All climbers begin with a small mountain ,their skill and endurance increasing with time.Kungfu should be the same . It s not a race ,it my own journey with a fews storm to pass .I need to revisit my goals and believe in the process.

 I wouldn’t survive being a nurse without compassion! We can teach many things but can only help to understand compassion.Peoples reaction are unpredictable when facing negativity. Open mind and judgement free is needed! I found easy to be compassionate with others but harder to be with myself.

When you hurt yourself with the same previous injury is scary.My though was all over . I was upset that once again my training will slow down and even if it will be possible for me to earn my black belt one day. I had the opportunity to have a small talk with sifu brinker and it was helpful! I am a competitive person in a good way due that challenge me to push harder .My ego got involved and  i thought , i will be so behind of everyone ,how can i do a new form that will look great so i just wanted to gave up and do a form i know .But really i was more afraid of what people can say and not be ready for my beta version We are all working towards mastery .I am happy that those negative thoughts are behind and now working on the recovery process. With time i will learn again how to ajust my Kungfu with my injury and be proud that i didn’t gave up .