My personal progress

 Recently at work we had a code black (bomb threat ) Normally the nurse in charge should stand up but in this case she wasn’t ,  so i took the lead . A group of students were there and when the code was lifted the teacher told me their students were amazed how calmed everyone reacted and how smooth it went . Confidence was the key , i knew where to get my resources and was able to apply it . With the banquet approaching i have so many thoughts  in mind. Does my knee will locked , does i ll drop my weapon or even start to soon . The team is providing me strength to be confident . When we were doing the practice demo i don’t question myself but i just feel the vibe and do my best . I never think about what if something happened , i thrust myself to react . Last year i couldn’t be part of the demo and even if my form is not my best performance yet i am still standing and looking forward .

 I have not fulfilled my promises of The IHC but i am still here. Slowly i am learning my trigger of the reason i wanted to quit . One of them is the number due i wanted to reach the 50000 and the minimum to be done daily was a bit too much if not done modified. I am at the point that i don’t want to do everything modified . Looking at my book was a reminder of it . I started a new book and i respect my magic number without doing 5 more . When it will be easy ill increase them . At work i had a patient that he is a quadriplegic , he is doing the para olympiques and he is striving in lives. That was a great reminder that everything is possible to achieve even my black belt . My progress is my own and time shouldn’t be what hold me down .