My personal progress

I witnessed many differences on how people react with the covid situation.From the reckless to the extremists and the opportunists to the generous people.They are talking moving ahead soon with stage 2 and yet some people complain.When i first saw Lao gar i was grrr how can i learn that and stressed about it.I didn’t take the advantage of the 1/1 sessions with the sifu until last week.When we break the form in part that doesn’t look to bad even if still struggle with the moves!when asking questions ,seeking for help or information we are able to process in a positive way .I am pretty at ease with the covid situation due i am very aware.Looking at the big picture without breaking it can easily get you scared or frustrated .

The last i ho chuan team sifu Brinker asked how we feel about our weapons form and to raise your hand if you feel not so ready.I raised my hand!I know the moves but still working on the flow.I have not practice has much than i should do.I know ill get there but i needed to change things up to care for myself and avoiding burnout.Slowly ill be able to increase my requirements.My engagement remains also i am learning to forgive myself that sometimes nothing go has plan and to keep moving forward with a positive attitude.I don’t like to break my promises but i know is not about motivation but life throwing at me a challenge!

I have not been very present lately.In order to better care for myself,i have chosen to slow down and prioritize my needs on the daily basis.I may not progress as far as i had hoped to but i am trying to avoid shutting down.My commitment remains,i am just going t a different pace.I had a better start than the previous year in the team but i am still happy with my progress even if now my number are lower.There have been many changes for me and my family as the result of the covid virus.Life has presented me a new learning curve and i am embracing the challenge.Not always easy when you have  17 hr of sleep in 5 days.The dark clouds is near but the sunshine is too.I am seeing the good of the i ho chuan .That help me to kick my butts ,to stay strong and to keep going!